Distracted wrote:It's a HELL of a lot of work. I've got to starve myself, exercise like a maniac, dye my hair and skin, paint my nails, put on make up like a clown, and psych myself up every time I do it. It's both a physical and an emotional investment that I'm not sure I can keep doing if I get it thrown back in my face every single time I try.
You probably don't understand, not being my age, but it's frightening for me to impersonate such a young and beautiful woman. I feel like a fake every time I get into the costume, and I keep expecting people to snicker and say "Who does SHE think she's kidding?" under their breath. And if I keep doing it, eventually that's going to happen. I'll be 45 on my next birthday. I have no business running around half-dressed. And being laughed at would kill me. So it's time to quit now while I can still barely pull it off.
Okay you're scaring me.
Like what's wrong with you that you gotta starve yourself. Dude you're skinnier than my anorexic sister. Naturally
and like when I complain about my big fat ass you tell me there's nothing wrong with my body?? And I'm like 30 lbs overweight. So if I don't have to starve myself then you sure as hell don't. Now go feed those poor little abs of yours before your internal organs turn into mush.
And you're like so totally not old okay. And you can't "impersonate" someone young and beautiful because you already are. And it makes me sad when you say stuff like that about yourself.
And I do understand. I mean like okay I'm not your age or whatever. But like how do you think I feel every time I audition for a role of a 14 year old and I'm up against cute youthful girls who don't have a broken nose and/or a million years of terrible life experience all over their cute youthful faces. Costume contests are for fun not for "kidding" anyone... and you know what in the con I went to there were 2 brothers in the costume contest, each of them weighed like 300 lbs and they were wearing TNG uniforms, one of them was dressed up as Data and I don't remember the other one, but anyway except for the uniform that guy didn't go all boot camp on himself to get a "perfect Data body" or whatever, and didn't wear any makeup and didn't even straighten and dye his curly brown hair. But they went on the stage and gave their show and had fun and I didn't hear anyone saying like "who do they think they're kidding" or whatever. And like am I supposed to be "kidding" someone when I dress up as a Vulcan even though they're supposed to be like tall and skinny and I'm all short and overweight?? And my hair is all curly and frizzy and all over the place instead of a bowl cut?? I'm not kidding anyone. If I decide to be a Vulcan then I'm a frelling Vulcan and my hair is STILL regulations.
Gah sorry. Like obviously you have your reasons and I can't tell you how to feel. It just makes me sad that you think so little of yourself
and even more so that this image you have of yourself would keep you from doing something you enjoy. Well unless of course you don't really enjoy it.
I guess the bottom line is whether you're doing this for yourself or for everyone else.
Hey! I know! You could go as Deanna Troi's Momma! 
*begging for mercy* 
