My apologies
Posted: Wed Dec 15, 2010 8:29 pm
Hi there folks,
A couple of days ago, I made a mistake and read some TnT fiction that stirred extremely bad memories in me. Unfortunately that prompted me to say some things here (in the yowling rant thread), which were grossly inappropriate. One of the persons I attacked was Alelou - a fellow member, who I value very much. I want to express that I'm very sorry for that and hope she'll forgive me. The frightening thing is, I had to reconstruct part of that from my inbox as my memories of the past few days are a bit hazy.
It's hard to talk about, but since 2006 I've been struggling with depression. I was ok for most of 2007-2009, but I've had some relapses in 2010. Realizing, the morning after I went bezerk, that something was badly wrong, I've had myself delivered to a psychiatric clinic yesterday morning. Not that I remember too much of it, since I was hooked up to an IV with some 'magic juice' for about half of the time. Thankfully I was only kept overnight and returned home about two hours ago. I'll have to go back to taking antidepressants, which affect one's clear thinking (about 90 minutes from now I'll be high as a kite as it's time for a new dosage), so my participation in the community will most likely be farther in between as it had up to now as I'll only have about 8-10 'clear-thinking' hours a day for the next two or three months.
I'll start 1-on-1 consultations with a therapist on friday and I hope I'll be back to being myself sometimes, but it'll be a long-ish way.
Cheers, Kotik
A couple of days ago, I made a mistake and read some TnT fiction that stirred extremely bad memories in me. Unfortunately that prompted me to say some things here (in the yowling rant thread), which were grossly inappropriate. One of the persons I attacked was Alelou - a fellow member, who I value very much. I want to express that I'm very sorry for that and hope she'll forgive me. The frightening thing is, I had to reconstruct part of that from my inbox as my memories of the past few days are a bit hazy.
It's hard to talk about, but since 2006 I've been struggling with depression. I was ok for most of 2007-2009, but I've had some relapses in 2010. Realizing, the morning after I went bezerk, that something was badly wrong, I've had myself delivered to a psychiatric clinic yesterday morning. Not that I remember too much of it, since I was hooked up to an IV with some 'magic juice' for about half of the time. Thankfully I was only kept overnight and returned home about two hours ago. I'll have to go back to taking antidepressants, which affect one's clear thinking (about 90 minutes from now I'll be high as a kite as it's time for a new dosage), so my participation in the community will most likely be farther in between as it had up to now as I'll only have about 8-10 'clear-thinking' hours a day for the next two or three months.
I'll start 1-on-1 consultations with a therapist on friday and I hope I'll be back to being myself sometimes, but it'll be a long-ish way.
Cheers, Kotik